Beloved, I greet you all in the mighty name of our gracious, merciful, and precious Savior and Lord Jesus Christ.
Before getting any further, I would like you to pray this prayer.
May the divine life, freedom, victory, revelation, and glory of God Almighty in Christ Jesus by the power of the Holy Spirit enter my heart and mind as I am praying this now Father God.
May the Spirit of God Almighty deploy His healing and restoration power to heal the deep and lasting wounds past abuses and assaults have inflicted on my soul and body.
May the divine healing power of God heal the very mental and emotional infection these wounds have caused to my soul.
May the liberating power of God sever that unending loop of vicious and aggressive thoughts being played in the background of my mind by destroying the autonomous aspect of this issue once for all.
May the peace of the Most High God in Christ Jesus that surpasses all understanding overrule the ongoing intrusive and unwanted (thoughts, memories, or flashbacks) of the past plaguing my mind.
May the power of God silence the mental aggression that I’ve been experiencing all along.
May the blazing light of God’s glory repel the thick cloud of darkness of my past chasing me violently and persistently all the way to my present and future life.
May the power of God destroy the beast of trauma stirring up my flesh through continuing pain, discomfort, panic, insecurity, anxiety, depression, and so on.
Lastly, may the anointing of the Spirit of God that brings liberation break the yoke of trauma from my life.
I receive it all right now in the mighty name of Jesus
My name is Arold Augustin.
Beloved, I don’t claim to be an expert in the field of psychotherapy or psychiatry.
But I have a lot to share with you regarding the issue of trauma that will be very helpful in getting you on the highest path of true healing and restoration by the power of God’s grace in Christ Jesus.
As someone who has suffered from a speech disorder known as stuttering since my early childhood, I’ve had to learn the hard way to go through the many challenges associated with living life with such a frustrating and crippling issue.
Stuttering is a disorder which involves frequent problems with the normal fluency and flow of speech.
This disorder literally puts you in a bind. It becomes your own boss dictating when and how you should speak in a given situation by interfering with your flow of speech.
Therefore, you cannot express yourself as you would like to due to constant blocks, fragmentation and repetition of words, interruptions, hesitation, and so on.
You could have something insightful at the top of your mind but cannot get it out clearly and understandably.
You have to witness your own speech being disintegrated or butchered at the exact time you need it the most.
When experiencing these blocks, your brain gets frozen. You cannot quite find the right words to express yourself as wished in this type of awkward situation.
Consequently, there’s a great deal of fear, panic, worry, and doubt being linked to such problem regarding coming out of your comfort zone to do something out of the ordinary, not to mention the embarrassment, annoyance, and frustration that come over you when getting stuck up on words while trying to say something publicly.
Things get even worse when being stressed out. As a result, I’ve had to shun any job requiring excellent communication skills.
My greatest pain in life is to witness people expressing their frustration on me while trying to communicate with them something that I already knew exactly what to say but cannot say it due to an issue which is outside of my sphere of control.
Sometimes, I feel rejected and humiliated based on people’s reactions to my inability to communicate clearly and timely.
And if you ever get into a situation which leads to an argument over an issue as a stutterer, you cannot quite defend yourself all the way through as you would like to even if you are right.
Traumatic Experiences
Beloved, I’ve had some horrific experiences in life with some careless individuals that had left such a huge scar on my mental and emotional state of being, which had ultimately led to fierce resentment and grudges against those involved for years when thinking of these experiences.
These experiences had brought enormous trauma on me during these years.
One thing that I’ve learned is that the very heart of the pain related to trauma memories when involving a perpetrator has to do with these following elements:
- Your inability to defend yourself during the moment
- That perpetrator’s utter carelessness about your dignity as a human being deserving to be treated with respect
- The horrible feeling that came over you when it all happened or thereafter when trying to truly grasp what happened
How Does This Issue Turn Into An Ongoing Nightmare?
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Since you were unable to defend yourself either verbally or physically, this gets to create a relentless desire for you to do so through the realm of your mind by means of holding grudges as much as you can just to make up for what you were unable to do against such individual during the altercation, which is a recipe for more and more pain to be unleashed against you.
I had been a walking reservoir of pain by holding onto these painful memories to get some sense of mental and emotional vindication by wishing all types of horrible things to happen to the perpetrators.
These painful memories were something that I had been ruminating on daily to the extent this issue became my second nature. It was like my daily routine.
I had found myself in a constant mental war with the perpetrators to sort of get some form of internal vengeance to uplift myself from the mental and emotional pit of these memories which worsened and prolonged the pain further.
Beloved, lot of time we hold unto unforgiveness with the intent of trying to make ourselves feel better by trying to satisfy our innermost desire for revenge, but it does the exact opposite. It imprisons us in a constant cycle of pain instead.
But at some point, I’ve come to the realization that letting go of the pain being accumulated from within by opening up my heart which was initially locked up with the pain raging within like a wildfire through ongoing forgiveness was the way to start experiencing true and lasting healing.
I understand that it’s not easy to forgive by letting go after all you’ve been through, but that’s where it has to start.
My life has never been the same since I’ve been applying spiritual principles found within the Word of God to tackle such problem.
I’ve been able to move from a past life of pain to healing, restoration, wholeness, and peace of mind through God’s power.
This Could Be What You Wanted After All
I’m sure that so many of you have been struggling with trauma related issues for years, decades, or even a lifetime have been on a desperate journey for a life-changing answer or solution that could finally unveil the hidden mysteries of such issue baffling you during all these years.
If that’s the case, this free guide holds the answers and solutions to some of the toughest and long-sought trauma related questions and problems you’ve been wrestling with.
In this guide, I will show you how to release the pain imploding within so that you can start your own healing journey in God after all.
I sincerely hope that it becomes a blessing for you all seeking healing and restoration from a terrible past.
Good luck!